I wasn't really sure what image would most reflect what I'm trying to say in this post so I just used one of me holding a good cuppa'. Now, I really don't like to use my blog as an outlet for rants about my life, but this isn't a rant as such, and I feel as though this post will find a nice home here, nestled in between all of my other more interesting posts about fashion and photography!
Basically, I've had a bad day, and yesterday wasn't great either. I started back at uni yesterday after a hefty six week or so break for Christmas, but rather than making me feel alive and motivated like I thought it would, it's made me feel fed up, frustrated and just generally down in the dumps. Somehow everything has annoyed me today...from waking up to a grotesquely messy kitchen this morning, (NOT my mess), to sitting in a lecture about law, (of all things to teach us about on a fashion course!?), to opening the washing machine door and floods of water pouring out onto the floor...bad day!
To make matters worse, in this negative state of mind the thought of where I'll be in three months time when I finish uni has started to terrify me. I don't want to move home with my parents because they live too far from London, but it's very unlikely that I'll actually be able to afford to live in London, let alone intern for free! (Apparently that's the only way in to fashion these days).
The prospect of pursuing my dreams in London seems so far away, impossible even, but the thought of not achieving them is heartbreaking! I know you have to work hard in order to get where you want to be in life, and I am willing to do that, but it just all seems a bit out of reach at the moment...and as I'm being kicked out into the 'real' world in just three months, this scares me a little! Despite all of this however, at least I'll always have my blog. No matter where I am in the world or what I'm doing, I'll still be able to feel part of something and feel connected to my most burning passion in life, fashion, so long as I have my blog.
I feel a little better now after writing on here, blogging literally is like therapy, does anyone else feel better after posting!? It's like a drug, I love it! Thank you to any one who reads this, or to any one who reads my blog in general, it's a privilege to post for you! I'm going to leave all of this negativity behind now and get ready to go out to celebrate Leigh's birthday which was a few days ago, going to wear my new 'Youreyeslie' dress!
Don't worry! Please don't give up-- I love youre fashion far too much for anyhting like that! And everyone has those days <3 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mCHzicKq3W4&NR=1&feature=endscreen
ReplyDeleteI totally understand how you feel. Career in fashion often seems out of reach to me as well. It’s like a lottery. But as you said, hard work pays off. The best suggestion I can give you is - network!. You are in London right now, you are very lucky to be in this fashion metropole. So you have 3 months to just get out there as much as you can, and you never know what can come your way. You’re talented, you just have to believe in yourself :)
ReplyDeleteN'aww thank you you're so sweet :) Unfortunately I don't live in London! That's the problem...so if I do want to intern or network then I have to commute to London which is usually too expensive! SO ANNOYING! But thank you for the kind words, fingers crossed it'll all work out okay!^^
DeleteThis post really educates me well. It has a complete recipe just like how you cook a delicious buffet. It serves as an appetizer to my brain. Thanks for posting this. Thumbs up!
ReplyDeleteYes I have to agree, posting is like therapy! BTW i heart your glasses
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I feel the same as you Toni, no idea where my life is going now graduation is so close! You will be pleased to know that as of April this year the law on interns is changing, they have to pay min wage :) good times!
ReplyDeleteReally!? Oh my gosh this is such good news, thank you for telling me cos it makes me feel a little better knowing I should be able to get a paid internship!^_^ x
DeleteI think when I leave uni i'm gonna intern for free during the day, and get a bar job at night :) I know it'll be difficult, but you're amazing at what you do, so why not try it? But seriously, you have no reason to worry, I really think you'll get to where you want to be - for a start your blog is amazing! (and you've taught me to trail through the charity shops more often, and for that I cannot thank you enough!) don't fret, it's just the January Blues, promise! x
ReplyDeleteBlogging is also kind of a terapy to me, sometimes I write about ramdom stuff, but its good to be writing ur thoughts daily!
ReplyDeleteU look so cute in this pic!!!
I hope everything works out!!! have a great day! <3
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Im sorry to hear about your week. And I know what you mean that blogging is like therapy (for me it is my creative outlet from my job in finance!). You will see that if you work hard you will make it to London (it was what I wanted as well!- although at times now I wish I was in NY!)
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